The Other

You made me this way
Shaped me with your words
Like crude tools - hammering and chipping
You made me the other
With your faded ideas
Your improper plans of who I should be
-according to you
So I became the other
The counterbalance of you
Because without it you cannot exist
You need the other
So that you can be self
You made me who I am
So that you could hate me
So that you could love yourself

-o0o-

Hard Day

It's warm
I'm sweating
The labour is hard
But it's good

Pushing more and more
Carrying the stock by myself
The other guys are on site... I'm here alone
But it's good

Customers changing their minds
This then that
No... they want that now
But it's good

Making money
Making progress
Getting better at this
And it's good

Pushing myself further
Sitting down in the office
Back in pain
But it's good

Head is spinning
Faster and faster
Paperwork won't sit still with the fan blowing
But it's good

Drink lots of water
Sing a happy song
Keep my mind on the good things
Make it good

I've never done anything
Never mattered
Been told before that I don't matter
That I wasn't good

But now I'm working
with my hands
Pushing hard
Becoming good again

It's a hard day...

-o0o-

The Alternate Sexuality responding to Conservative Evangelical/Calvanist Christianity

All my love runs so deep
Through darkest veins unseen
All piled up in a heap
Kept from your staring eyes
All hidden from your sight
In a safe place I keep
All my love from your spite
And the hatred that ties

The faithful judgmental
The cruelest discourser
Your “God” elemental
The bitter divorcer
Self given election
My forced genuflection
To the will of this cult
Of elitist rejection

-o0o-