Forced You?

forced you?

to date me?

made you love me?

did I?

it didn't bother me

till I heard a friend say it too

then it bothered me for days

I forced you?

to commit to a relationship?

when I asked you daily

if this is what you wanted

when I told you

that you had a way out

daily

when you took from me

when you took sex

when you took companionship

when you took trust

when you needed a shoulder to cry on

and made me feel ashamed
you'd rather fuck in a car
in the bushes
in the dark
because gods forbid we get discovered in a bed

because I'm not worth committing to?

because I'm good for a fuck

but fuck me if I'm good enough to love

you wanted all the merchandise

but none of the bills

you wanted all the glory

but none of the work

when I asked you to love me

when I asked you commit

and you agreed

and I still told you

there is a way out?

and I asked you daily

if this is what you wanted?

I let you fuck other men

because I was afraid

if I held on too tightly

you'd go away

and I really did love you

and I really did say

that you had a way out

and I asked you each time

if this is what you wanted?

but I forced you?

that's some

patriarchal

sexist

bullshit

I will not accept

you do not get to use me that way

you do not get to use me sexually

you do not get to use me emotionally

and then turn around

and complain that I forced you

to love me

if you ever did love me

believe it or not

I don't have that kind of power

men think this way

that they are owed sex for free

that there is no cost for what they do

that when they make lofty promises

that when they make commitments

that all of that will just blow away

I didn't do anything wrong

in asking you to commit

I didn't do anything wrong

in asking you to be true to me

I didn't do anything wrong

and I gave you the choice

and I do not possess the power

to make people commit against their will

no

I didn't "force" you to date me

I didn't "force" you to love me

you did that all on your own

you are not the wronged party

in the failure of our relationship
I owe you a lot of things
but I never forced you into anything

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